Wild Hearts – Trevor Monroe Part One – Lost Hearts Read Online Blue Saffire

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Total pages in book: 100
Estimated words: 96249 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 481(@200wpm)___ 385(@250wpm)___ 321(@300wpm)

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Wild Lost Hearts Series


I want a divorce and I want it now. I’m so tired of playing these games, but if I have to sit here in counseling, I’m going to make myself clear. At least, I think I am until Dr. Winsor asks a question that throws me back in time. My greatest regret. The one who was supposed to be my future. My wild heart.


I’ve never had someone love me the way he did. It was more than a love from growing up as childhood friends.

I was broken and he made it his business to fix me as best he could while also hurting himself.

However, I was eighteen and I didn’t know what I was doing. I made big mistakes and in the end we all paid a price.

Wild Hearts Part 1

This Romantic Drama

-Girl Next Door


-Friends to Lovers

-Broken Dreams

-The One Who Got Away

-Drama and Lies

-First Love

-Forbidden Love

-Lost Their Way

*** There is a to be continued ending. Book two follows right after.

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It’s like I can’t breathe. I made a vow to stay away from the place where my heart lives. Placing one foot in Texas has the power to shred me open.

I would bleed out. Without question, I know I would. However, I have to go. This time I have to go home.

“Are you all right?” my manager asks.

I look up from my phone into the face of Matthew. I have to squint through my tears to see him. I dart my tongue out to wet my lips. Suddenly, the air conditioning in my dressing room sends a chill through me.

Matthew stares back with concern in his green eyes. This man has become such a good friend. One of my best friends. Not everyone in the business gets that lucky. He’s been there when I needed him to be throughout the years. He has had my back through everything while I’ve made my mark on the world.

“No… no… I.” Tears begin to roll down my cheeks as it hits me. With the shake of my head, the truth slips free. “No, I don’t think I am.”

“Talk to me. What’s going on?”

“I have to go home. It… it’s my father. Daddy needs me,” I choke out.

“Is Moses okay? Wasn’t that just last month he came to New York?” he says.

“Mama says he had a stroke. She says it wasn’t as bad as it could have been, but I know she’s lying. I have to go home,” I reply.

“No problem. Elise and I will get to work on canceling tour dates. Do you know how long you’ll want to take?”

I shake my head and purse my lips to trap the sobs in my throat. I don’t know what’s gutting me more. The reason I have to go home or the past that awaits me when I arrive.

Matthew perches on the side of the vanity in my dressing room. Searching my face with his green gaze. I note the moment he sees through me.

“You know, I’ve never questioned why you refuse to go home to visit your parents. You always have them flown out to New York or Nashville for the holidays, no matter if you’re working or not.

“At least two members of your team and best friends are all from Texas and still visit or have a home there, but you”—he shakes his head—“you won’t even entertain visiting. I find it interesting that a Texas-born girl refuses to book a show in the state.

“Hell, Texas is one big state. If this is another Walter situation, I should know about it,” he finishes.

“It’s nothing like that,” I murmur.

“Then what is it?”

He gives me a pointed stare. Waiting for me to come clean the way he always does when he knows I’m holding something back. When I don’t respond, he continues.

“I love you, baby girl. Like my very own little sister, but it’s time for you to tell me what’s going on in Texas that has undone you completely.”

I close my eyes while the tears flow. “My biggest regrets are in Texas. The reasons my songs come from my heart, but I can’t give the label the happy stuff they’ve been asking for… the reason I can’t commit to a decent relationship. That man lives in Texas. The one who broke my heart… that’s who’s in Texas,” I breathe through trembling lips.

“I’m thinking this trip is long overdue. Go home, show him you made it big and he’s the one who should have regrets,” Matthew replies.

I snort and shove a hand into the front of my hair. “Nope, he has a family now, a wife and kids. I don’t matter.”

Matthew’s brows shoot up. “Why in the hell would you be hung up on someone you don’t matter to?”

“It… it wasn’t always that way. So much happened that summer… that year after.” I pause to blink in confusion as I get my thoughts together. “I made mistakes, my daddy got in the middle and… and I guess I made the wrong choice and then… and then… I… I always felt like I missed something. Then… then… it was over.”

“Lynn, baby girl, any man willing to turn his back on you is out of his damn mind. You light up a room without so much as trying,” he says and folds his arms over his broad chest.

A weak smile is all I can offer him. He and his Melody had a forever love. The kind I once thought I had. After losing her, he has made it his mission to see to it that everyone else finds love and happiness. I just don’t think that will ever be in the cards for me.

“We’re just… it’s complicated. Always has been.”

“Wait, this sounds a lot deeper than what you’re letting on.” He takes another pause while tapping his phone against his chin, staring off into space. A moment later, his fingers are flying across the device in his hands. “Okay, I just had Elise clear your schedule. Now you and I are going to have a long chat. I want details.”