Holding You Read online J.L. Beck, Cassandra Hallman (Blackthorn Elite Spinoff #1)

Categories Genre: Romance Tags Authors: , Series: Blackthorn Elite Spinoff Series by J.L. Beck
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Total pages in book: 18
Estimated words: 16561 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 83(@200wpm)___ 66(@250wpm)___ 55(@300wpm)
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His expression is filled with pity for me and guilt for himself. More tears fill my eyes as I hope this time, he’ll do the right thing. Just this once, he’ll stand up for me, instead of ignoring me, but like always, I’m forever forgotten, and just as fast as he looks at me, he looks away. Pulling away from the girl on his arm, he walks out of the lunchroom, and anger like I’ve never felt before replaces my sadness.

He’s just like them…

The memory dissipates, but the effect it has on me remains. I can still feel the peas landing against my skin, still feel the pain of watching him walk away that day. He doesn’t hate to see me cry; he’s never cared...never.

Gathering all my strength, I force myself to roll away from him and slide off the bed. I’m naked and vulnerable, but I won’t be made a fool of, not again.

“What’s wrong?” Carter moves into a sitting position, his eyebrows pinched together in confusion. I walk over to my dress, which is lying in a heap on the floor, and slip into it. I don’t even bother trying to find my panties, knowing that I won’t be able to wear the ripped piece of fabric anyway.

“Daisy, please, just talk to me, did I hurt you… did I do something? Say something? Please.”

His pleading makes me snap, and I turn to face him after struggling to zip up my dress. “You are the problem. You say you can’t stand my tears, but I remember many times, where you just stood by and watched your friends make fun of me. Maybe you didn’t say the words or do the things they did, but you were no better than them, standing there and saying nothing. You’re a liar, and I don’t want anything to do with that.”

That handsome face of his falls, and guilt contorts in his features. “Daisy,” he says my name like a prayer, but I shake my head and slip my feet back into my heels.

“No, I don’t want to hear your excuses. This was a mistake, and I’m sorry. Forget tonight ever happened. I know I will.” I can barely contain my emotions as I walk to the door, leaving him to sit on the bed alone after the best sex of my life. But I need more than that. I want Carter, but there are so many things stacked against us right now, and though he hurt me, I can’t bear to hurt him the same way. I can’t pin this on him, nor can I sit here and let him lie to me.

Opening the door, I walk out of his suite without another word said. As sad as it is, it has to be this way. It has to be.

8

Carter

What the hell just happened? Guilt and anger burn through my veins. I’m the reason for this. I knew our past would come back to bite me in the ass, but I didn’t expect it to hit me this hard. And I didn’t expect it to happen right after what we just did.

I’ve had sex many times before, but it’s never felt like this. There has always been something between Daisy and me. A spark of sorts, but up until now, I was too stupid to see it.

All I had to do was reach out and grab it, but I was too much of a coward. Now, I finally have her, and she is slipping through my hands like quicksand. No matter how much I try to hold onto her, I know it’s useless.

Watching her walk out of the room was like a quick kick to the balls, and all I could do was take it and fight through the pain.

Needing to clear my head before I do anything, I decide to take a cold shower. I force myself out of bed and into the bathroom, turning the shower on without even looking up. Stepping inside, the cold water shocks my body. Lowering my head, I watch the water wash away all the evidence of sex, and it hits me then. Not only did I come inside of her, but she left without her panties.

Fuck me. Now, I’m left with the image of Daisy walking somewhere downstairs, with my come dripping out of her and down her leg. Marking her as mine. Like a selfish bastard, I wrap my hand around my already hardened length and start jerking myself off in quick, hard strokes. This is the last thing I should be doing right now, but Daisy needs space, and I can’t stop thinking about how she felt so perfect wrapped around my dick. I’ll make certain my cock is the only one she has for the rest of her life. I fucked up once before, but I won’t give up without a fight this time.


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