Dirty Dix (Hard Love Romance #1) Read Online Monica James

Categories Genre: Romance Tags Authors: Series: Hard Love Romance Series by Monica James

Total pages in book: 109
Estimated words: 103440 (not accurate)
Estimated Reading Time in minutes: 517(@200wpm)___ 414(@250wpm)___ 345(@300wpm)

Come, sit. Tell me your deepest, darkest secrets. I dare you.
My name is Dr. Dixon Mathews, and I’m New York’s finest shrink. For $500 an hour, I take great pleasure in listening to people unload their dirty little secrets because the best secrets are the ones left untold.
I’m smart, cocky, and easy on the eyes. But I’m no Prince Charming.
I don’t do relationships. However, that’s all about to change, thanks to two different women who truly represent sin.
Who will I choose?
I know who I should choose, but I never said I was the hero of this story or even the good guy. And besides, who wants to be good when it feels so good being bad?
My tale isn’t for the fainthearted or those who want a happily ever after. So if you’re game, strap yourself in and expect the unexpected.
But don’t say I didn’t warn you.


“Ijust…can’t…stop…eating…them,” says the luscious woman in front of me, inhaling her third Twinkie in one big bite.

I really shouldn’t be focusing on anything other than helping her. That’s why she’s here, after all. But I’m not. And that’s because the way her plump, supple mouth gobbles down on that golden sponge has me envisioning that it’s my dick she’s devouring like it’s her last meal, not the damn Twinkie.

Shifting subtly in my leather seat, I tell my cock now is not the time to rear its sinful head as I’m here to help Sharon with her addiction.

According to the ever-resourceful Wikipedia, addiction is “the continued repetition of a behavior despite adverse consequences, or a neurological impairment leading to such behaviors.”

So what triggers an addiction? What makes people like Sharon here completely and utterly addicted to something they can no longer function without? I mean, it sounds ridiculous that we can’t stop certain behaviors because we are the ones in control of our actions—no one else but ourselves.

So maybe it’s a habit. But a habit is done by choice; therefore, we could stop if we wanted to. So, in that case, maybe it’s a repressed memory biting at our heels, and we’re just using that as an excuse to get high, drunk, STD-ridden, or—in Sharon’s case—unable to function without Twinkies.

We all have addictions, whether big or small, in one form or another, and we human beings are complex characters that either deal with it or sweep it under the rug and just don’t talk about it. But the people who do want to talk about it, whatever their addiction, come and see me.

My name is Dr. Dixon Mathews, and for five hundred dollars an hour, one can unload their deepest, darkest secrets and leave my office feeling healed and reborn. Most people just want the confirmation that nothing is wrong with them and their abnormal tendencies aren’t that abnormal after all. And my patients get that from me. They get the verification from one of New York’s top psychiatrists that their need to eat cat hair or masturbate in public is normal.

In just a few sessions, I pledge that my treatment will cure them of their neurotic behavior, and they can blend back into society where citizens are none the wiser that they are walking amongst some batshit-crazy loony tunes.

The reason I can guarantee this is because the majority of people who walk through my doors just want to whine and complain, and once they get whatever the hell off their chests, most see the light and stop with the crazy. The small minority who do have earnest issues, I prescribe the ever-reliable benzodiazepines to treat their insanity, and the world thanks me for creating another pill-popping, asocial zombie.

So call me a bastard, but at thirty-two years of age, I think I’m allowed to be a little jaded and apathetic toward society. You would be too if you had to listen to the same old sob story day in and day out from the spoiled, rich folk who never had to work a hard day in their life. Yet they come to me with pathetic stories of injustice and wrongdoings, totally oblivious to how lucky they really are.

As Sharon is droning on about the woes of her life, I think back to my original question. What triggers addiction? Many trained professionals have stated that the causes of addiction vary considerably, but they are generally caused by a combination of physical, mental, circumstantial, and emotional factors. But me, I know addiction comes down to one simple, primitive concept.


Whether we desire success, beauty, food, alcohol, drugs, nicotine, porn, or sex, the result is the same—we all want to experience the euphoria that comes with these factors, and that’s what we become addicted to. The actual trigger differs from person to person, but in the end, we all just want to be…happy. And in most circumstances, desire leads to pleasure.